I’m glad to see you made the right decision and didn’t go through with the thoughts of suicide. How tragic it would have been for your children.
happy hunting all , opening day 14 days out
goldhunter470 wrote:And thank you very much. I think it took a lot more courage to make that initial step than to tell my story. If I can help one person by telling my story, I will feel like what I've gone through was worth it!
goldhunter470 wrote:I wasn't sure where to put this but it ends with a spiritual experience. So here we go.
About seven months ago I had to shut down my business. Expenses got too high and I was losing money everyday. The debt kept mounting and the pressure to do something was mounting. I was facing lawsuits, repossesion, and foreclosure. Life was getting pretty bad. I was even considering suicide. I didn't care anymore. I just wanted the pain to end. My marriage was falling apart and I was rejecting my family and friends. I just didn't care.
Well one day the wife left me. 2 kids, a house, bankruptcy, and a mind that was in no shape to handle it all. I did a lot of talking with my mother and she suggested professional help. I called my doctor the next day. He put me on an antidepressant and suggested counseling.
I am proud to say I have turned my life around. I'm a happily divorced father of 2 wonderful boys who live with me full time and I enjoy every day I spend with them.
My spiritual experince happened 2 weeks ago. It wasn't in a church rather it was in the wooded valley of the Sheyenne River in SE ND. I became one with my surroundings. Not one unpleasant thought entered my head. All I could think about was becoming part of it all and taking down a deer. I can't really explain what happened out there, but it was truly incredible. Very uplifting.
The main reason I put this up here is to raise awareness of depression. It really is never too late. It's not a sign of weakness. It is something you have no control over. This is why some people turn to suicide. It is the only thing they have control over. Their life is meaningless and it's the only option. If I can help one person, I feel I have saved a life. If you or someone you know is depressed, get help...... please. Whether it's through religion, family or professional, get help. I hope someone who is going through this will read this and realize that you are not alone.
Sorry to get preachy but my feelings are very strong about this subject and I hope to help.
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