Many years ago I had an acquintance go through a windshield, many surgeries, etc... That is when I started to buckle up at all times.
I to had to winder "what the...." 17 years ago. I went to 16 in 18 months or 18 in 16 months---sorry I can not remember, but they were funerals and wakes. It really threw me for a loop. It forced me to look at my own mortality. Today, I am not afraid to die. I hope I do not, but if the timer goes off, there is nothing much I can do about it anyway.
So I am sorry about the deaths DL, but time does heal deep wounds from my experience. Sometimes emotional pain is mandatory in life(loss of a loving one), but suffering is optional. As a result, it has strengthened my resolve in life, perhaps it'll do the same for you to.
The Audacity of Bull Crap.
"Typical: Gun-loving, bitter bible-thumping white person" Barack Obama.
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